Escaping the Cycle

Fueled by emotions my memories elude me​

Making me question all that I am 

All that I was

My heart is pounding 

My mind beings to race

The turmoil kicks in 

Judgement after judgement 

Opinion after opinion

The saddest part is the conditioning of our beliefs

Everything we learned is false

Nothing you knew then do you hold true now

Never really reaching what we are trying to find

Who really knows where to go

What path I take

Where to turn 

Everyone is just as lost as I am

Yet I hold myself back and I fight and argue 

I only become my own worse enemy 

Kicking and screaming

Never getting out of my head

Trying to find something that isn’t even there

I’m grasping in the dark and I never find the door

Stuck in the routine forever

All I need to do is to turn on the light

But I am too oppressed 

Too self involved 

Not strong enough

Soon it will all end 

In death, the inevitable. 

Devoured

Loneliness is surrounding my being 

Incapable of anything else

I forget what it’s like to be human

I forget what it’s like to have empathy for others

All I see in this haze is a burden 

A burden to myself 

With lost hope

No one can be found when you’re blind

But this is how you live when you let life’s judgments cloud your perspective 

There is no use in fighting for the truth because you’ll never find it

Truth will deceive you and lure you into the darkness

Into the pain that will swallow you whole 

Your soul will be devoured by criticism and labels

Your mind will be diluted by the sound waves of the television 

Eventually your life will flash before you eyes only for you to see that you have never done a thing

That you failed the world by being suffocated by your own blindness. 

Creating disease after disease from all your poor choices. 

You will turn to waste

same as the waste you spent your whole life creating.